15 Years Old And On Drugs

by Maria

I have had issues with drugs my entire teenage life and it's the reason for a lot of my issues today. Drugs somehow alter you and change a person forever.


When I was 15 years old I used a drug (I won't mention the name) that would be considered one of the worst drugs, if not the worst, to ever use. I was sort of tricked into using it by my cousin and her boyfriend, but I don't blame them. I had only really ever smoked pot before that and they let me believe that it was the same thing but better. It was NOT the same.

It was terrible and I found myself selling all of my belongings or trading them for the drug. I never thought I would become that person, but I did. I went through this experience completely alone. I was suffering and I couldn't reach out for help because most of the people in my family were stuck on the same drug. The only person I could turn to was my mother, but I was way too terrified to tell her I had a drug problem.

However, my mother wasn't a fool. She had seen my aunt go through the same thing time and time again and she noticed all of the signs that I was using. Still, I denied it and when someone is in denial about drugs, no one can help them. After my 16th birthday we moved to another state and I told myself that I was going to quit.

I decided that I would take it as on opportunity to start over and leave my habit behind me. I knew it would be hard and trust me it was one of the hardest things, if not the hardest, I have ever done in my life. The withdrawal from a serious drug like the one I was abusing is no joke.

I literally had dreams about it for months. It took a long time for me to completely lose that feeling of needing the drug, but when i did I was free. I wouldn't wish that kind of pain on my worst enemy. Sometimes I think about how strong I was at 15 years old to totally and outright quit a drug that most adult addicts use and abuse for years without ever being able to stop.

I guess I can say I am proud of myself that even at that age, being so young, I knew I had to do something for myself. I knew that I was out of control and that this was not the life I wanted for myself.

I want to be a drug rehab counselor someday. Not only could I sympathize with an addict, but I can empathize because I've been through it myself. The good thing about it is that I won't accept any excuses from a patient because believe me I know how hard and painful it can be to kick a drug habit. But if I could do it for myself at 15 years old when I didn't have any other motivation, like kids or a job, then anyone can do it.

I know that it is possible to quit and I know that it is possible to stay clean, I am living proof right here at 20 years old. I hate that I had to go through what I went through, but at least I can live as an example for others. At least they can look at me and realize they can do it too.

God has put it in my heart to help people who really need it and want it and for that I can be grateful. My experiences haven't been the easiest, but they serve me a good purpose to remind me where I could have ended up and where I am now.

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Nov 06, 2014
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Proud of You
by: Anonymous

I Dear im so proud of you keep it up hey . God bless you

Aug 06, 2014
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I don't understand...
by: Kristin

I'm very happy for you that you were able to overcome your struggles with addiction. I, too, and a recovering addict. What I don't understand about your story, is why you chose not to name the drug that you were addicted to... How do you expect to help anyone thoroughly by sharing your experience, strength and hope if you are not willing to give your full story, which would include the drug you were addicted to. In my opinion, the best way to reach out and help is by letting people know the details of your struggle, because all drugs are different. Meth is a different struggle then heroin which is different than cocaine. I would encourage you to add your drug of choice in your story - it comes across as though you are hiding it or are ashamed. We should not regret the past or wish to shut the door on it. I am a meth addict... I am in recovery and I will tell anyone who needs help the specifics of my struggle with meth. I can't help a heroin addict as well as I could help a meth addict. So you see? naming your drug is important. Just a few words of advice for you since you do want to be a drug counselor one day. And again, I'm not trying to discourage you, quite the opposite. I'm very proud of you and wish the best of success in your recovery and in helping others, but don't be afraid or ashamed to give more detail. It is by your experience that you will help others.

Best of luck,

Kristin

Apr 30, 2012
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empathy
by: Anonymous

Can't tell you how pleased I am to read you beat it early before it destroyed your liife ! I've posted here before as it took me 40 year to shake off my addiction .. Now I'm sat on my bed in a detox centre again for alcohol an diazipam ..foolishly I Replaced one drug for another and Having to do it again !Can hardly type for crying !! Hard doesn't come near the pain an mental turmoil I'm feeling BUT I'm gonna do this. I have to because I'd rather die than suffer this again !! My daughter has giving me 2 beautiful grandchildren and I'm Not letting them down plus I. Not ready to die !! Well done lad ,you have my admiration and respect !!!

Dec 11, 2011
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Teen addictions
by: Amy

I agree with you...I was fourteen when I first tried drugs then I had my first child at 15 and a life of chaos followed. Except in my case it took many years to shake it off me. Hats off to you for kicking the habit young. I know how you feel the addiction will never go away but in time you do look back and are more thankful each day you are free from it. That is great you want to help others, that is the highlight of addictions when we step out and help someone else and give them our tools we have learned to save someone else's life. God Bless =)

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