Drug Addiction: I survived High School & My Many Addictions

by Dean
(Indiana)

I don't know how someone starts out a story like this, but here goes.


I remember the first time I took Xanax. It was in High School. My 3rd year in and I was in my Environmental Science class. I knew most of the people in the class did drugs, but I knew I was above all that.

I guess things change when you want to try new things. This guy I knew always had pills on him and just gave them to people for free and didn't really care too much about it. I decided, "What could a Xanax hurt me?"

I found out. It can get you addicted to the good feeling and have you begging for more and more as time goes by. Each day I would ask if he had more with him. He always gave me more, and more, and more. I was hooked in almost 2 weeks and couldn't live without the mellow feeling.

Soon enough I was spending all the money I could get in order to buy almost every pill in the book, a sure sign of drug addiction. I loved Xanax and every other downer out there.

I remember once I had a prescription bottle at school my Senior year and it had at least 15 different types of pills in it, full to the top. I had to have taken at least 10 different pills that day in my math class. The period was almost over, and I remember standing by the door waiting for the bell. I felt so out of it and loopy, more than I knew was normal. My friend was standing by me and I barely had time to say "I am going to pass out" before I actually hit the floor.

When I woke up, I remember the class standing around me in a big circle just staring at me. I guess they thought I was dead. I went to the nurse’s office in a wheelchair and I had to flush my precious bottle of pills down the toilet, bottle and all before they found it.

I got over the pills a couple years later and ended up moving to "Duster"which I had never tried before and told myself I never would. I saw my friend Rachel do it and after she did, she just stared at me like a zombie. After she inhaled it, she fell back onto the bed and started throwing up, but the vomit was orange colored and it freaked me out.

Probably a week later, I went ahead and tried it and was hooked right away. I saw myself go from being a pretty good kid to stealing 2 cans a day from Wal-Mart at whatever cost. Once I did it right in the store. There were people everywhere and even an employee in the next isle, but I didn't care.

The worst part was putting my Mom through everything I did, when I was addicted to drugs. Come on, Mothers are not stupid and they know what is happening. She said at first she didn't, but she caught on. I remember so well when she tried to take the can from me once. I told her I would stab her and then I pushed her out of my room. Even thinking about doing it makes me sick to my stomach.

I overdosed twice and went to the ER for it 2 times as well. I don't remember either time. One of the times, as I am always reminded, my Mom found me in my room naked on my bed and I was cold as a fish and my eyes were rolled back into my head. She told me it took at least 2 tries before they could revive me.

Why I am still alive I don't know. I know people have much worse addictions, but anyone's addiction can be just as terrifying as the next.

The last thing I gave up was Marijuana. I had an addiction to marijuana for about 2 years. Everyday, all day, I had to smoke. If I had to steal to get the money, that is what I did. Luckily, I got in trouble a few times for it and it slapped me into reality and opened my eyes to the fact that it was time to stop drug addiction.

I have been clean for almost 2 years now from everything. Having addictions to drugs or the sauce seems like it is taking over people my age nowadays, and addictions are demons. God knows I went through Hell and back, overcoming addictions. Losing almost 60 pounds and becoming borderline underweight.

I am glad I went through this stuff though. Overcoming addiction made me a much stronger person and gave me a much better appreciation for life and little things. I wouldn't trade anything to go back to those days. I paid the price for what I chose to do. I paid the price for a very long time. Now I just have to start the hardest part of recovery for addicts which is mending the relationships I almost completely destroyed and make stronger the ones that got stronger through it all.

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Nov 07, 2011
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thank you!
by: Rae

Thank you for sharing your story with us! Reading your story brings me back to the days I was using. It reminds me of how scary an quick the progression of addiction is. Before you know it, you're hooked and it seems like there's nothing you can do about it.

I'm so glad to hear that you are clean and sober! It's amazing that you were able to get clean and stay clean at such a young age. Thank you again for sharing your story and best wishes with everything!

Rae

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